It's Wednesday. June is over. And somehow, I feel like I am just floating. I am not going anywhere. I am just sitting, like moldy bread on top of a stank pond. Okay, maybe a little harsh, but I AM GOING TO JUST DIE if I don't get a job soon. Opportunities arose, clouded by others that failed and I missed the others. I have never had such a hard time just trying to work! Aack.

Anywho. End self-pity. Isn't it just disgusting when all people do is whine and moan about how badly their life is going? Random. Got a call from Rory today. Kind of shocked me. He left a message. Since I erased his number in a fit of rage a time or two ago, we'll see if he calls back :)

Tonight we took a picnic to our builder and ate at where my mom and Jim's new house will be built in the next little while. It was Carl's Junior. Wasn't that just pivotal in the story? Anywho, I didn't go to the gym today and had fast food, so I think I just may quit this whole lean down thing and just go for all around pig. Then again, maybe not.

I have a new idea to take over the world. Except this one doesn't involve any spoons like last time. I want to make a mosaic of little 1" tiles with people's names to pray for on them. I don't know what I'll make out of it, but I want to do it. I hate that I forget to pray about so many things.

I need to learn how to pray. Some serious prayer time. But why is it that I get so distracted? I am a movie girl, but with all this extra time on my hands, I have been watching loads of TV. I couldn't tear myself away from this movie I was watching today, even though I knew it would end up fine, I just couldn't do it. I NEED A JOB! and my room: It's a mess. So, after this, I am gonna clean it up, and then watch my late night movie. Do I have a problem? Maybe I should get a sponsor like in AA.

Will you sponsor me?