Late breakfast with Tom and Amber. Shopping at Home Depot. Hanging curtains without making any holes in the walls. God is good and found in the small things each day. Amidst this crazy time in life, I am in complete peace because I have never felt more taken care of. I have never felt more truly beautiful. I have never felt more whole as a person. I have never known Christ so well. I have never been so alive as I am today. And I can't wait to see what tomorrow brings.

Heart issue of late: Physical relationships.
Why is it that so many pure girls have messed up on their first relationship? And how can that change? What could I have understood that would have kept my first relationship more pure? What are we not learning? And why is this happening to so many girls, old and young alike? What is it about a first relationship with its mystery and excitement that causes us to compromise physically and shrivel up with guilt? I don't understand.

And then you get into the issue of boundaries. What is okay? I haven't had to deal with this issue in a very long time, but I have friends who struggle with this. Is kissing okay? Is french kissing okay? When does it become too much? Is anything really okay? And if so, how do you just stop there? What makes it okay for one person and not okay for another? How can we maintain purity without being Puritans? Where is the line and how far should we stay away from it? What is reasonable in God's sight? Where does he say, "Yes, enjoy that part of a relationship."?

Does anybody agree? Do you know what I am talking about? My heart is open - teach me.