Do you ever feel disappointed in yourself? I know I can be better. I've seen myself be better. I know its in me. Why aren't I being the me I should be? And its not that I'm drawing from external sources for comparison - I'm comparing the me today to the me a year ago, and I'm sad.
1. I have gained weight. Its not much, but its still not ok with me. I struggle to feel good in what I am wearing. After I had Jules, I kicked me arse to get back into shape and I did GREAT! I was so proud of me. Now, not so much. The last two days in a row, I started a workout video during her breakfast and I made it a whopping 6 minutes the first day and 4 minutes the second. Boo. Could I workout during naptime? Sure. But when would I blog - er, um, get chores done? :o) What about at night? Too exhausted. And Ryan still won't let me take her to the gym. Boo. So I just have to get out of bed earlier. But NoOOOOO! I really don't want to. Shut up and do it Cari.
2. I am lazing it up with my bible reading and prayer. I have been better the last couple days, but it is just so apathetic and disobedient! Once I realized it was actually disobedient and not just lazy, that made it a bit real-er :o)
So there it is. I am disappointed in me. I'm working through it but would welcome any accountability and prayer!
Hugs to you all :o)
-Cari
Small brag: Ryan keeps telling me he can't tell a difference and that he thinks I'm beautiful. What a guy!!!
1 comment:
So crazy to read this morning, because I thought you looked fabulous last night!
And I admire your ability to work out at home, even for 6 minutes! I'm the same way at home, I think it's the environment.
I've seen women in Edmonds doing crazy workouts with kids in strollers. Maybe it's called Babies on Brigade, through Frances Anderson Center? Something else that always inspires me to work out harder: watching episodes of The Biggest Loser on hulu.
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