12 M&M's left, 5 red, 3 light green, 4 dark green. I love Christmas candy. Which reminds me, I need to go running :)

1 light green M&M, down the hatch.

I need prayer, like never before. Just like always, things are out of my control, irreversibly and profoundly screwed up and all I can do is look to Jesus. He is the redeemer, the restorer . . .

1 dark green down.

. . . the creator and designer of all relationships so here and now, I confess absolute ignorance. I deserve nothing. I have no wisdom, I am fallen, human and really really cannot get up.

1 light green down.
1 red down.

I am so scared for what tomorrow might bring. Actually, knowing the Lord, I am sure things will only get better, but I can't imagine the muck and mire it will be necessary to wade through to get there.

2 dark green down. I'm getting serious.

Lord keep me humble with a soft heart. Open my ears to hear your thoughts . . .

1 green.

. . . and to act as you would, in complete love, mercy and to stay filled with hope.

1 red.

I know I don't deserve to have this work. It might even be easier to just call it quits, and I am so tempted. I need strength. Tomorrow, I will talk from my heart with a friend lost in order to attempt reconciliation. I must not be too open, but I must be honest. I must share my heart but not be an open book. That book didn't get too great of reviews, no, let's just say the editing team chewed it up and spit it out through the shredder. Lucky for me, my God heals.

Please Lord, heal me. Heal our friendship. I can't do it.

3 red and one dark green to go. Save til tomorrow? Who am I kidding!

1 green, 3 red down.