A friend has challenged me, amidst my list of things to do in life (now serving number four thousand and twenty three), to come up with a life mission statement. Nothing is set yet, but here are some rough draft thoughts:

I want to love in the most amazing way and be loved in an unspeakable way. I would like to say that I am speaking of God's love first, but honestly, my heart yearns for a human love that I am confident will come one day. So until then, I must focus on truly knowing the Lord and his ways. I want to know the Him so well that I will be able to walk through a crowd and feel him guiding me by a slight nudge on the small of my back. I want every day to be a new adventure, so in light of that, I want to keep my mind open to new things and never become fixed. I want roots and yet I want wings. I want music in my life: audible; tangible; tasteable. I want to bless people in ways they never knew possible. I want to be that one reliable friend that through no matter what, will always be there. I want to have that house that is always open, always with cookies in the oven, always warm, always playing Flamenco music at the dinner party. I want to surround myself with peaceful beauty and robe my home with linens and art and dishes and hanging chimes and candles and bouquets of flowers. I want an actual home. I want I want I want. Blah.

Enough of that. More than that, what does God want for me?

Lord, what do you want for my life? How are you going to use me? Guide me through the crowd, draw me to your heart. Show me what it really means to love and to know You love me. How can I bless you? How can I honor your name?